Venting Thread, or FML!

[Eliste]

2weeks ago, I came back from London, and was exclaiming how thrilled I was not to have to go anywhere for their month because I am BURNTOUT. then last Friday my last living grandparent died. He was 95, had dementia, wasn't a shock, but he was my favorite grandparent.

So now I'm sitting in Philly airport, still wrecked, because I haven't quite gotten adjusted to the time difference. I get home tomorrow at like 8:45am, and then at 6pm my fiancé's sister is picking us up to go down to his mum's for Easter, which I kinda forgot about.

Am I a really bad person that I really do not want to go visit his family? Cause if I could figure out a way out of it, I probably would.

[SofaraStarfyre]

I am surprised that your fiancé hasn't suggested that maybe you two don't go or that just he goes since you seem to have had a LOT on your plate recently and are still not recovered from it all, and now the loss of a family member to boot... That's enough stress to wear someone out... It's not even a little bit bad to not want to visit with his family when you have so much going on in your own life and you're technically not part of his family yet anyway. It's nice to be included when you're engaged, but sometimes it's nice to just stay home too.

[rockinwithrammstein]

Not a bad person at all.

Hopefully depending on the type of people they are, they won't be offended. I'm pretty sure everyone would understand if you bowed out of this one.

[SunkistShiek]

So, I had a meltdown yesterday. While at work. Nothing actually happened to make me meltdown (bawl, actually), I just started to cry, ran out into a stairwell, then bawled. My higher up walked in on me while she was doing an errand and talked me through it for 30 minutes. I'm not sure if I'm more shocked at the fact she stayed for 30 min, or that I bawled for 30 minutes. I was just feeling frustrated with my life and feel like I'm not going anywhere or making progress and I hate my job and am scared about many things.....and she just talked me through it, told me I wasn't crazy, that she had a breakdown about over dropping q-tips....*sigh* what she was telling me felt similar to what I felt and so she suggested a therapist, which I'm still contemplating. I just felt like sharing this here, there's no real point other than it happened, although it has put me seriously behind on my projects but it'll be ok. If anything else major happens, I'll let you guys know.

[QueenBex]

Sorry to hear that Sunkistshiek. I am suffering the same as you at the moment.
Nobody seems to believe that nothing in particular sets you off, I just lost it last week at the end of a d&d session for no reason.
I had a mini break down yesterday for not much of a reason, restarted a therapy art group with a couple of new people, all have problems, always don't know what to say or think, I'm way too empathetic, I could feel their stress their anxiety and feel the fear, and I got to thinking how much of that was actually just me? Then * kids around town chanting fat * at me and drunks yelling and making fun of me.
I walked past a place I used to live the other day, a supported housing place, after leaving home at 16 and being declared homeless 9years ago, that is where I went. A mix of emotions. A * ton of memories have been assaulting me since, none of them good. I didn't swear, didn't smoke, didn't drink, only listened to pop, never had as much as a sleepover, never got into trouble, didn't do drugs, nothing. That's what I was like going in, what a * shock to the system and huge revelation living there was.

I said to myself don't get into it, and here I am getting into it, sorry, I'll shut up about that now.

[BooChocoBoom]

You guys, I can't say there is "something going around" but it sure feels like it! I've been struggling for the last couple of months (hence my decided lack of posts again) at work, at home, and everywhere else, it seems. I can't seem to concentrate and my procrastination is finally becoming a REAL problem. The fact that there are possible consequences for my income apparently hasn't even been a motivator. THIS IS A PROBLEM and it wouldn't only affect me. So. I've finally scheduled an appointment with a therapist. I go on Monday for an "interview" to see if this one is for me. I will say that immediately after scheduling the appointment, I began to feel more hopeful and I started DOING things again (like cleaning my place, eating healthy foods, and stitching) instead of lying around. Here's to hoping this gets the ball rolling and I can get the help I've been putting off for so long.

To everyone else that's been having a hard time of it - it will get better! *hugs*

[SunkistShiek]

To everyone else that's been having a hard time of it - it will get better! *hugs*

Hugs to you as well. Let us know how the appointment goes! I hope there will be some good news for you

[anarchyash3]

Got my hair cut because my scalp psoriasis has been so bad it was putting me in tears. I've been loving it but I have been a little worried because it is so short. http://imgur.com/8FvINLO I have been getting nothing but compliments until someone today say "Oh you look like a 12 year old boy but I mean it's cute on you" I feel so hurt. I am a 22 year old girl I dont want to be mistaken for a 12 year old boy. :/ now feeling like I look ugly and everybody has been making fun of me by saying I look good. I know it *shouldnt* matter but it does.

[Aegidia]

Well, for what the word of an internet stranger is worth, anarchyash3: I think you look awesome!

I am sewing a dress that needs to be finished this Saturday and I just found out that I reversed two pattern pieces. They're pieces of the lining, so the fabric is very fragile and I don't know if they will hold up when I undo the seams. I am so, SO annoyed...

[loafoftoast]

"Oh you look like a 12 year old boy but I mean it's cute on you"

If it helps, I'm 28 and I still get this comment ALL THE TIME. So, from one prepubescent male to another, you look good.