Kareesh wrote:I swear, if one more person announces that they're pregnant, I'm going to scream. 2 people this week announced they're pregnant. One of them has been going on and on about how they'll never have another kid, they're kid is perfect, they have things in place so that they won't get pregnant for 5 years, etc. etc. etc. Well, their daughter just turned 3 and guess what? She's pregnant. *sighs* Then this other couple just had a kid, and they're having another one in December. Like, seriously, they're having 2 kids in one year.
I am happy for them, I really am, but I'm becoming a little bit cynical. I have been trying for a year and a half and nothing. A year and a half. I mean, we're not trying that hard, so I'm trying not to stress out about it, but...I dunno. I know I should be happy as we just bought a house and that's a good, but...I dunno. I just want another kid. I actually broke down the other night crying. My husband is all like "You should be happy for your friends". I don't think he understands how really hard it for me to feel....inadequate, I guess. I know I've bitched about this before, but when it seems like half my friends list is pregnant or just had a kid, the same crap resurfaces again.
I get the same feeling, although my issue is more that it's not an appropriate time. But seeing my classmates get engaged and married, and my cousin just had a baby and her sister is pregnant... It makes me want that so much more. But two more years of college before my parents will even think about permitting me to get married. Logically it's practical, but oh my goodness, I am so done with logic. I just want a ring, maybe a nice long wedding dress, and to move out of my parents' house for good. On the bright side, my lad has mentioned that he's found a ring that makes him think of me. I told him that he's not allowed to show it to me, and that if he wants the ring I normally wear on that finger for sizing, he should probably do it well before he actually wants to propose xD
I just keep trying to look on the bright side of things. I've got an online friend who has been going through some pretty intense crap, and he's been leaning on me as support. Don't get me wrong, I love helping and being able to make him feel like he's worth more than he thinks, but imo, there's something screwy if your best friend is a chick you've never met several states away.